[ He shouts, after having his fists curled with his nails digging into the palm of his hands. Maybe he's tired to the point that his self restraint no longer just gives a fuck for the moment. ]
At that point, it couldn't be helped! People were disappearing from the boss area and no one knew why! We were running short on people! People weren't coming back fast enough! The healers were getting tired from doing their job way too much and the bird boss was smart in attacking people directly instead of their Personas!
[ There really is no stopping his yelling right now. Everything just feels like it's pouring out. He couldn't say most of this with the people who visited him, and he just. Can't take it anymore. ]
Rei was one of the overworked healers. I needed to get her out of there. We were all going to retreat and regroup another time, but the bird boss ended up separating us. Thankfully, Vassago was with her, so she was fine, but he ended up literally crushing my heart since he was aiming for me.
[ His hands are bleeding now with the amount of pressure his nails have dug in. Maybe it's at this point, he just. Explodes. ]
That could have been Rei. Rei isn't like me! She would have died for real if something like that happened! If she died like that, I'd never forgive myself--at least if I took the hit, I'd be fine later! That's how it's always been! That's the only reason why I'm standing here today--talking to you, Leon! There is no later for humans who die like that! If they die, that's it! They're gone forever!! I'd rather it be me who suffers like that temporarily, than to have someone like Rei die permanently!!!
[ The last sentence is yelled louder than anything he's said before during his stay in Hirajiro. Not even when he screamed at Vassago to tear things apart, not even when he yelled someone's name when they were in danger... not even screams of him being absolutely startled by something. All of his frustrations, let out into a screaming declaration, filling the empty classroom. ]
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[ He shouts, after having his fists curled with his nails digging into the palm of his hands. Maybe he's tired to the point that his self restraint no longer just gives a fuck for the moment. ]
At that point, it couldn't be helped! People were disappearing from the boss area and no one knew why! We were running short on people! People weren't coming back fast enough! The healers were getting tired from doing their job way too much and the bird boss was smart in attacking people directly instead of their Personas!
[ There really is no stopping his yelling right now. Everything just feels like it's pouring out. He couldn't say most of this with the people who visited him, and he just. Can't take it anymore. ]
Rei was one of the overworked healers. I needed to get her out of there. We were all going to retreat and regroup another time, but the bird boss ended up separating us. Thankfully, Vassago was with her, so she was fine, but he ended up literally crushing my heart since he was aiming for me.
[ His hands are bleeding now with the amount of pressure his nails have dug in. Maybe it's at this point, he just. Explodes. ]
That could have been Rei. Rei isn't like me! She would have died for real if something like that happened! If she died like that, I'd never forgive myself--at least if I took the hit, I'd be fine later! That's how it's always been! That's the only reason why I'm standing here today--talking to you, Leon! There is no later for humans who die like that! If they die, that's it! They're gone forever!! I'd rather it be me who suffers like that temporarily, than to have someone like Rei die permanently!!!
[ The last sentence is yelled louder than anything he's said before during his stay in Hirajiro. Not even when he screamed at Vassago to tear things apart, not even when he yelled someone's name when they were in danger... not even screams of him being absolutely startled by something. All of his frustrations, let out into a screaming declaration, filling the empty classroom. ]