[Toki sits too, intently listening. He remembers thinking Kano was an illusion when he first got to Hirajiro. But Kano kept insisting he wasn't, or that it didn't matter if he was. He gets part of this, he does. He used to think nothing was real, he knows how frightening that is. But it must have been worse for Yuya, who knew what real was like before.

Toki looks away when Yuya mentions drowning; it brings a wave of panic he can't hold back. It passes quickly, and he's trying to focus on the cafe story. It was Toki's fault he had to work there. He won't have to anymore.]

I don't know if I can get this across right, but I'm going to try.

[He's slow and deliberate with word choice, because it's getting harder to find them.]

When I talked to Maverick about Kano, I said the same thing. This was after I posted to the Network and Kano didn't want to engage in discourse over my chosen topics. He wanted things to be like they were, though I hadn't talked to him for a while. I told... I told Maverick that I thought Kano only wanted to talk to me if I was fun and when I... now... I'm not fun. That's what I think is happening here too. Like you said. He doesn't get any enjoyment out of your presence and it hurt you when you came to that realization. You... You can be upset.