Yeah, I did. Plenty of times. Even nowadays, I still feel like that sometimes. I can't communicate as well as I want to, I mess things up for people all the time, I lose my temper on the stupid things, when I try to fix things I only end up breaking it more... I thought that maybe it would be better if I wasn't here anymore. I lived way too long... I'm not meant to live this long without breaking.

[ Terry shakily breathes out. ]

... But I learned that it's okay to have hope again. Even now, I hope that you'll come back to us. Then we can do all sorts of things. I still haven't forgotten about how you wanted to cook breakfast for me, and how takoyaki is the shape of happiness. I want to do so much more with you, Rei.

Minato told me once that when I'm down, I drag everyone with me because of my personality. But that personality is also the reason why I'm strongly connected to everyone. I think... it's the same for you. You're strong, but it got tiring to keep it up. I get it, because I also feel that way a lot. I don't have anywhere to go if I leave Hirajiro either.

In the end, I wanted to keep living and have more happy moments with you, Rei. We're a family now, remember? I was also happy, because I never had a family. I cherish you, and I want to do my best so that you can live happily. When there are bad times, you know that I will do my best to be there for you.

[ It makes him think of the moment when he gave her the orchid flowerclips, and he hopes that she will remember that moment. ]