[ How did he put off not dying, throughout all the times where he wanted to die...? The one time where he truly took matters into his own hands was in 1633, but life back then is still a haze, both dead emotions and overwhelming ones all mixed together until it was an ugly black and he couldn't stand drowning anymore. ]
...Nothing in particular. I wanted to die. I wanted nothing to do with the world anymore. But I loved Souji and I wanted to be with him as long as I could, to make him happy as much as I could. So I hung on.
[ As long as he could, but then he offed himself anyways. It was with a lot of regret, though, and he had to stew in that regret without getting to move on and escape the consequences. ]
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...Nothing in particular. I wanted to die. I wanted nothing to do with the world anymore. But I loved Souji and I wanted to be with him as long as I could, to make him happy as much as I could. So I hung on.
[ As long as he could, but then he offed himself anyways. It was with a lot of regret, though, and he had to stew in that regret without getting to move on and escape the consequences. ]